Confusion 

It’s been over a week since I decided that I was worth more than what he gave me. 

Over a week. 

I am more confused every day. 

How do I stop loving soneone that didn’t treat me like I was important to him? How do I stop? 

This past week there has been ups and downs regarding him. Lately it has been ups. 

I’m trying to figure out what game he is playing with me. He has been everything I had always wanted him to be. Attentive and caring. Communicates, that’s a big one. 

The last thing he said to me last night is that I am an important person to him. Okay, how so? 

Am I important because you care? Or is it just because I am the mother of your child? 

He has told me he loves me and compliments me when ever he gets the chance. 

Everything that was lacking is now there. 

What game is he playing? Is he trying g to just keep me holding on to hope so no one else has the opportunity to gain my unfailing love? Or has he realized that I do have a breaking point and he needs to step up before he loses me for good? 

It’s all so difficult to decipher. 

I’m not going to make any rush decisions, I have don’t that before and it always leads back to the same thing. My heart and mind need serious healing time before I will be able to think things through clearly. As. Much as I want to believe he cares, I just can’t. I want to believe he cares, but I can’t. 

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